| Okay, so i know i never post on here but i feel like rambling and that is usually when i do post something so here it goes...
Love...so I've decided everyone (from what I have seen at least) loves someone that does not love them back or is in love with someone else. and that person may even be in love with someone who doesnt love them...and it keeps going and going...
And then a lot of times the second person realizes they really do love the first person when its too late and the first person has forced themselves to finally move on and love someone else and then the cycle begins again....
I guess it is just something that is required in life to go through, but why is that, is the emotion of love just something to make us loose our minds and be constantly trying to achieve something that isnt really meant to be recieved?
Why is that we never love the people that love us and the people that we love never love us?
I've lost where i was going with this.....i am so confused, tired and just need to sleep the crazy drama away....
sorry as usual for the ramble
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| Did you ever feel like screaming at the top of your lungs in an open field to let off frustration? Well that is how i feel right now....the only time i ever really write on this thing is when i need to let out some frustation...but thats what its for right? Well last week i spent looking for a new car because my car keeps trying to kill me....now its at the point where my car wont turn....i need to use all my strength just to get the freaking car to make a turn. so grimaldi and i were looking and i found a nice 2000 chevrolet cavalier that i liked...it was perfect and just what i was looking for....and only $11,000 which is good. so they ran my credit and found out i had good credit and that i could finance the car on my own but the only thing was is that i would need my own insurance because right now i am under my mom's plan....so when i called to find out how much my insurance would be for myself for that car it was $7800 a year!!!!! That is like $650 a month....which is just plain craziness....but if i wait a year it will drop down to $3000 a year because i will have had my license for 3 years then...so that was the hateful car drama...i dont know what to do though because i dont want to pay to get my car fixed and i dont know if it will last another year it has 130,000 miles on it.
Today when i went into work i checked ccmail (email) and we had a message from Marcee Patin who is the human resources representative. The message was about job openings...we get them every month usually with different jobs that have open in the corporate office. Well as some of you may or may not know, ever since i got promoted to management i have wanted to be an OS (Operations Support) they are basically the people that handle all the paperwork that the theaters send to corporate and the person theaters ask their questions to....they also do most of what i do now but on a wider scale....well anyway, this position never opens up but when i read the message from Marcee today it said that there was an operations support position open....i was sooooo happy....i told everyone i was definitly applying for it....but now i am starting to think about it...i don't think i am going to get the job because a lot of people are probably applying but what if i actually were to get it. I would have to move to Texas and not know anyone there and i would have to leave all my friends. However, i have to apply because i know if i dont i will regret it plus, Mr. Beck is being really supportive and really wants me to do it. And i will probably be making at least double what i do now to start....i dont know what to do...i dont feel like thinking about it anymore though if you have any comments or suggestions leave me one =) thanks guys! | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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| | I feel like crap.....i dont know why but i had like a breakdown....i dont know whats wrong...all of a sudden i felt real aggravated and i just wanted to scream....so i parked my car and went for a walk around cherry hill....and thought...about how i miss the old days mainly....midnight walks with cathy....laying in the driveway with the group...i miss performing and spinning in colorguard....i miss hugs from everyone....i miss feeling proud...i miss thinking people feel the same way about me as i do about them....not having to wonder if they care about our friendship as much as i do...i miss feeling like im cared about....i miss having long conversations with my friends....i miss being completely happy and not caring what was happening....im going to sleep.... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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| | i feel so sick! i have a headache and my nose is running and i keep coughing and when i cough it makes my head hurt worse...boooo...=( thursday was my first day back at school, it was okay....my first class i have (macroeconomics) alex is in which is awesome! our teacher seems to be an okay funny guy too. Then i have developmental psych next and allison is in my class, plus this girl theresa who was in my chem class last semester so that is cool, then i have spanish II and that teacher is crazy...she made us stand up like 7 times and dance then she made us walk around the class, pretend we were pushing a shopping cart, and picking out groceries. crazy....i bought 2 books and it cost me $216 you would think college books would be cheaper since we are poor college students, but apparently not. hopefully i wont have to buy anymore books because samantha let me use her art appreciation book and my spanish book is the same one from last semester. i have to do good this semester and go to class! hopefully with people being in my class it will be more incentive to go and i have a break in between 2 of my classes this semester. i am so far behind since i took those 3 semesters off...thats the only thing i really regret about dropping out for like a year because now i just want to hurry up and get the degrees hehe. Thats all thats really happening....monday i am probably hanging out with mike so that should be fun....and i have art appreciation with allison monday night...hopefully that class isnt too boring. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | ok...so...friday i went and saw Adaptation (again) with rich coon-el-ly at the ritz....the movie was about to start so i told rich to go into the theater while i got our goobers, pretzel bites and soda. When i got back to the theater the movie was already started...we were sitting at the back of the theater in the handicapped seating (the seats in the back of the theater where there are only 2 seats in one row so you can roll up some wheelchairs) i handed rich the goobers and went to sit down, for some reason i was thinking there was a gap in between our 2 chairs (a gap big enough for a wheel chair) so i went to sit in my chair. now if you guys have ever been to the ritz you know that when the movie is on it is extremly dark in the theater...they barely have any floor lighting...so i go to sit down and next thing i know i fell on my butt and then flat on my back and the soda and pretzel bites went up over my head and splattered every where. (remember,the movie which is a quite one, is playing) Rich gets up from his chair and was like omg are you ok give me your hand...i kinda just layed there then finally gave him my hand and he pulled me up...we went into the hallway and started cracking up for like 10 minutes. we were laughing so hard we were crying. we decided not to go back into the movie and went to eat at applebee's instead. after dinner rich asked if i wanted to try to watch the movie again because he really wanted to see it, i said sure...so we went back into the theater and when we got in there they hadnt cleaned it yet...so i go to see cheese and soda EVERYWHERE from when i fell there was cheese all over the floor and ground and soda all over the floor where our seats were. seeing this just made me and rich crack up again...it was a time that will always be remembered. i will post more tomorrow...toootles | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
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| | So...i just got back to florida...had a great time..didnt want to leave...again! G and Russo picked me up from the airport which was cool. next day saw Chicago with Cathy and went to PF Changs with Amy and Ali. Now the vacations over and i am back to my old routine again. work...sleep...eat...rewind and play. school starts the 22nd so that should be cool. took spanish II, macroeconomics, developmental psych, and art appreciation. Ali and i took our first step as business partners on thursday....we bought a vending machine to put in the employee break room where we work. if anyone knows any information about working at home let me know, i need to find a job that i can do at my other job to make extra money to save. well im really tired...sorry this is crazy. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | hey people...yah so ive had this journal for a while now and nevetr posted anything...but cathy keeps pestering me so i finally did. i'm in florida right now having fun. we've done a lot and saw a bunch of gorgeous things. i got to meet a lot of brad's new friends and see michael a couple of times. i saw brad's office (he really is a business woman) and it was cute. he even has pictures of me and cathy hanging up at his desk. well i posted so i will try to keep doing it. tootles | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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